“What is needed, rather than running away or controlling or suppressing or any other resistance, is understanding fear; that means, watch it, learn about it, come directly into contact with it. We are to learn about fear, not how to escape from it.” – Jiddu Krishnamurti
Since 2011, I’ve publicly made a new year’s resolution to better hold myself accountable to it. Every year I’ve been able to back it up. In 2011, my goal was to leave my dead-end fast food job which I had been working at for the past five years. I did that in three months my life completely changed for the better. In 2012, my goal was to reach my full potential and shake off my shyness. This is a lofty goal which obviously can’t be done in a year, but in one year I reached out and secured two internships which set my career up. In 2013, my goal was to have a positive mindset. No self-putdowns, no negative mindset. This positive mindset gave me the ability to go out on my own and kick off my career. These goals are not simply new year’s resolutions. They are new ideals which I add on to my life every year, each one building off the other. I continue to work on these past goals to this day.
Now it’s time for 2014.
From 2009-2013 the end goal was finding a career and graduating. My mentality was focused on gaining experience and building my resume so I could get a job. I worked relentlessly with that one goal in mind. Now that I have that I have a job I feel like I’ve let my foot off the gas. Like it’s over, but it’s not over. It’s just the beginning.
My New Year’s Resolution for 2014 is to work against resistance, not just external forces but internal as well. In fact it’s the internal resistance that worries me the most. It’s so easy to come home and sit on the couch after work waste the rest of the night away doing nothing. After going to school full-time and working two jobs I forgot what so much free time felt like. My goal for the next year is to work on the little things. To better utilize my free time. The comfort zone is truly a horrible thing in my eyes and it is so hard to escape it. Some people never do.
It’s not just laziness I must get over. Fear is always present. While I’ve taken risks and learned how to control my anxieties I still have a long way to go. I must work on my interviewing skills and my source building skills.
What I realize more than ever is success isn’t just something that one works at for a certain amount of time and then stops. Success is a mentality and a lifestyle. After researching some of the most successful people in history I realize it is an everyday thing, down to the smallest details. Every single day stacks up.
Personally my motivation comes from the future vision of myself. The thought of living a mundane life controlled by fear scares me more than anything. It’s time to put my foot back on the gas. I will not let fear or laziness control my life.
No more laziness. No more fear. 2014 is the year of doing for me.
Work Against Resistance and, as always, I wish you luck in achieving your own goals.